I don't always remember my dreams. Sometimes they are wonky, sometimes they are vivid, but most of the time, I have forgotten them by the time I wake up.
Today, last night's vision is haunting me. Part of it was seriously out there, but part of me is really bugged by it. The dream was extremely vivid, but the part that I remember the most is where a friendship changed for the better (in a way I doubt it ever would, and in fact, to this point, didn't really think I wanted). Due to that change, I was happier than I have been in a long time. I was flooded by a perfect sense of being. I knew everything would be great no matter what came my way now that this was set.
Do you ever feel that way? Is there a moment where you want your dream to be real? Also, if it was something you could possibly pursue, would you? Is dream happiness attainable? Am I just really craving a richer fantasy life? Part of me wishes this dream had just faded like the rest of them. You don't have to answer. I think I am just posing a question into the void.
ETA: I really do have a blessed life. I am happy being who am I and what I do. There are always areas of your life you wouldn't mind being better at (i.e. more Christ-like, more organized, less messy), but right now I am really in a great place. The emotions evoked and vividness of the dream just really caught me off-guard. And part of me thought about pulling this post because it is more vulnerable than I am comfortable being outside of my head.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
The side-show freak
Crazy things that have happened to me of late:
Girlie Issues--Boo!
30th Birthday--Yeah!
Kidney Stones--Sob!
Weird muscle issues---You don't want to know.
Sometimes my life is quite amusing, as in, "I think the Lord fulfills his sitcom needs with my life."
Things that have made it better:
Girlie Issues--Boo!
30th Birthday--Yeah!
Kidney Stones--Sob!
Weird muscle issues---You don't want to know.
Sometimes my life is quite amusing, as in, "I think the Lord fulfills his sitcom needs with my life."
Things that have made it better:
- The Cake Wrecks Blog--Love it!
- Alias--sometimes you need the wigs! the beautiful Vaughn, the amazing Awesomeness of Jack Bristow, and the angelic-looking, twisted-evilness of Julian Sark.
- The Pear Square Event--Brittany got me to spend too much! But it was so worth it.
- Massage Envy--well, hopefully, today at 5:30.
- A clean kitchen and dreams of a gorgeous oven.
- Dinner with friends, bonfires, birthday parties, one-on-one Family History meetings, more than 3 people attending my Sunday School class, snarking, and singing in the car at the top of my lungs (also known as "My weekend in a nutshell").
Happy Monday!
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